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The Energy of Contempt

This state, Contempt, is a perfect example of the way nearly everything we experience as outside of ourselves has a mirror image buried deep within ourselves. My Contempt hated those I saw as abusive and unconscious, yet its true function was to guarantee I remained unaware of the Vicious Enforcer within myself.
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Reinforcements

The following two states, Reasonableness and Angry at Myself, build further layers of defense to guarantee Vicious Enforcer stays effectively suppressed.
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A Layer of Protection

Once Vicious Enforcer came to the foreground, other feelings became quickly apparent as defense states. The following two were key guardians ensuring that Vicious Enforcer never erupted into my waking life.
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The Vicious Enforcer

This was the rage I uncovered that day, revealed in the dream as the prison guard. I called it “Vicious Enforcer.” Let me share unedited what I wrote about this state:
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The Perpetrator Inside

Let me show you what I mean about my father being no different from me. A couple years back I became aware of a highly reactive place in myself, a place which harshly judged other men, in particular those who behaved in unconscious, exploitative, or controlling ways.
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A Step Back

Now let’s take another look from a different perspective. What about my father’s experience? And my mother’s? Nobody comes to be this way by himself. This kind of unconscious propagation of suffering can only be achieved by someone who has suffered greatly.
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First: The Big Picture

What follows is a deep dive, mapping and moving a full, nine-part set in January of 2008, a year or so after having established the nine-part architecture. The set revolves around a deeply buried, internalized violence taken on in childhood and adolescence in response to experiences with my father.
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  • The Science ·

Why are we made this way?

Whenever we as explorers discover something new, the very next question that typically arises is, “Why is it this way and not some other?” I shall have more to say about this in later articles, but at this point I think it is important to give you a preview.
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Integration: An Issue vs. a Life

When working with a focused issue, the work will most often remain somewhat limited in scope. But it is rare that anyone has an issue which is truly isolated, and clearing this first issue will reveal another pattern which had previously been hidden.