It started to come together as we got to the end of the process but I really didn’t see the whole shift until I had emerged on the other side. I can look back at myself in the midst of the process, and see the threads that tie it all together but at the time, it felt like a chaotic mess of upturned and scattered parts of emotions.

It’s hard to clean up a jumbled closet without pulling everything out first. We started identifying, feeling, and mapping emotions without shifting the first ones right away. The deconstruction process left me feeling exhausted.

I have always felt on the outside of things. Like a shadow observing but never invited to enter. I shifted “Isolated Outside” and I discovered a space around me that felt safe and that I influenced. Moving this part changed my interactions immediately.

This is a continuation of Louise’s story of doing Feelingwork, in her words, with my commentary in italics. The experience of shifting the feeling left me stunned. It moved so quickly and the feeling of relief and lightness was sweeping and overwhelming. A Couple Weeks Later In a session a…

The first feeling I mapped was fear of rejection. first I had to get the words right. “Fear of rejection” is an abstract phrase that could apply to just about anyone. It was not mine. What it really felt like was crumbling.

What follows in the next few posts is the story of Louise, (not her real name), who worked with me intensively for about three months in 2011 and was gracious enough to write the story of her journey: "They say that you find love when you stop looking. I found understanding when I stopped searching for it."