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My Journey: This work grew out of my personal journey, and my own story is inextricably woven through the emergence of the discoveries I share here. These posts focus on past (and sometimes current) moments of that journey. “Deep Dives” unpack one phase of Feelingwork transformation to reveal the deeper process.

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The Perpetrator Inside

Let me show you what I mean about my father being no different from me. A couple years back I became aware of a highly reactive place in myself, a place which harshly judged other men, in particular those who behaved in unconscious, exploitative, or controlling ways.
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A Step Back

Now let’s take another look from a different perspective. What about my father’s experience? And my mother’s? Nobody comes to be this way by himself. This kind of unconscious propagation of suffering can only be achieved by someone who has suffered greatly.
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First: The Big Picture

What follows is a deep dive, mapping and moving a full, nine-part set in January of 2008, a year or so after having established the nine-part architecture. The set revolves around a deeply buried, internalized violence taken on in childhood and adolescence in response to experiences with my father.
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My Fear: The Day My Life Changed, (1995)

MIND: Tell me briefly about your dream, and about the general feeling you’ve been having over the past day and a half. EMOTION: I’ve been feeling this low-level panic, like something big is going to run me down and it’s in my face and I can’t get out of the…
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My First Big Transformation

To give you a little perspective of what it’s like to do this work in depth, let me share the story of the day I dismantled my bipolar disorder. I awoke on April 4, 1995 at about 4:30 am after a disturbing dream. I knew the dream had to do…
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How I Believe (1998)

I was born into a black-and-white household, ruled by one who knew which was right and which was wrong beyond all doubt, my father, the cop. I was the firstborn, and the only son of five children, so expectations were high...
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The Birth of Feelingwork

The first time I placed my attention squarely on an inner, tangible property of a feeling state and pushed, I was not expecting much.