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But how many millions (billions?) of people are living with their own Vicious Enforcers holding them hostage from within? The tragedy in my personal story is not that it took me decades to liberate myself. I would not trade one second of my journey for any other.

I am extremely lucky. Normally this sort of internalized violence gets passed down from one generation to the next. That could easily have happened through me as well. I had absorbed the essential ingredients to become an abuser or worse.

At the time I completed this set, I was very hopeful about the impact of the Liberation set in my life. Immediately I felt a convergence of energy toward more successfully sharing my work in the world. But it didn’t last all that long. Within a few months I was back in a loop that kept me from moving forward.

It’s always nice to see the visual summary after doing all the work to map and move a full set. Here’s what the set looks like, moving from Authority to Liberation. Below the image is the sequential listing of states as they were mapped and moved.

Let me briefly cover the shifting of the last two reactive states, Fear and Reasonableness. In this post I’ll keep it short, sharing only the actual notes from these two states, and I’ll hold off commenting on the whole until the next couple of articles.

After moving Confusing Paralysis and Contempt, I was ready to revisit Angry at Myself. This part turned out to also have the quality of reversing its direction between the reactive and ideal expressions, and revealed itself to be the third of the three source parts. I’ll start by sharing the exploration I did at the beginning of the session.

Now that Vicious Enforcer was no longer waiting to strike, I was free to move the many layers of defense which had become piled on top of it. The next day, I settled in at my favorite cafe, rolled up my sleeves, and got to work. Angry at Myself called my attention.

Over the previous few days during which I had succeeded in moving Powerless and Miasma of Abuse, I had made at least two attempts to release the Vicious Enforcer. Let me first share the results of those attempts, and then describe the actual shift into the ideal state.

Now we’re ready to take a wild ride through the journey of each one of these parts as they transform from their reactive feeling states to powerful and resourceful ideal states. Because the entire set seemed to pivot around Vicious Enforcer, I tried moving it first. But it just wouldn’t budge.